I suppose I'm nervous. Of moving to a country where I don't speak the language and I've never lived before. And of starting my first teaching job in said new country. Teaching is wonderful and I love it, but it can be stressful and challenging so I suppose I'm nervous about not having my friends and family around me.
Ah, friends and family. I typed that and my stomach did a little flip because last night I had a little moment. I was getting so worried about how to fit in seeing all the people that I need to see before I go and I will admit I got a little teary. Because as exciting as this is, as much of an adventure as it will be, I am moving away from my lovely family and that's pretty scary.
It's not just nerves or anxiety though. I'm struggling to even put my finger on which emotion it is. I think I'm just overwhelmed. By how much I have to get ready, by how quickly it's come round and by all the things that are going to change a week tomorrow. In 8 sleeps. Gulp.
Annoyingly being overwhelmed has taken away a good 90% of my excitement this week. Well being overwhelmed and all the boring jobs I have to do, they don't help either. I definitely need some excitement back so my next post will be solely focused on things that I am excited about. I don't intend for this blog to just be about me feeling like this...
I'm pretty certain that a large part of this feeling is to do with the fact that I haven't seen Rich for a few days so I'm doing all of this getting ready on my own. Roll on Tuesday when I'm sure (after seeing him) that I will be raring to get on that plane.